When I was young, my parents did not allow me to
accompany my friends to church. I thought, "What's the
harm?" I was curious. I wanted to see what they do in
When I was sixteen, I went to church with a friend. I
felt something powerful inside that I had never felt before.
I was curious, why I hadn't felt this way when I went to
Temple? I was as confused as a young Jewish girl can be.
"Born-Again" Christians told me all my problems would go
away if I accepted Jesus. The most enticing part about all
of this was that they told me that Jesus would cure me of my
Cerebral Palsy and I would walk. They kept saying, "G-d
wants you to walk. G-d wants you to walk." I also wanted
this and I was tired of being different. You have to
understand, I hardly had any friends. I liked the attention
the Christians gave me and they were willing to accept me as
For more than a year, I lead a Christian life behind my
family's back. Finally, I couldn't keep it a secret any
more. I explained to my parents what I had been doing.
Having always been a real close family, it tore me up to
know that my new beliefs were pulling us apart.
When I entered college, most of the fellow students in
the dorm and my best friend were "Born-Again" Christians.
They included me in everything they did, as long as I
accepted their religion. They put me in touch with Jews for
Jesus. I was assigned a counselor who ordered me to call her
every time I felt an urge to contact my parents. She would
coach me on what to say to them. She claimed that she wanted
to help me bring my parents to Jesus so they wouldn't go to
Looking back at the way they controlled me, it was like
being in a cult. With the help of my Conservative Rabbi and
my parents, I got the courage to meet Rabbi Bentzion Kravitz
of Jews for Judaism. It wasn't easy because my counselor had
warned me about this "evil man." When she learned that I had
agreed to talk to Rabbi Kravitz, she told me to tape record
the conversation. I refused and went ahead with the meeting.
Rabbi Kravitz spent many hours with me. My entire family
was invited to his home for Shabbat. Today, I have returned
to Judaism and I am a "Born-Again" Jew. I learned that I
didn't have to leave my religion to find meaning,
spirituality and friends. It was here all the time.